today is not my day....

well i went out wif 'sumone'... mmg sah la ak xnk kuar ngn die dh..... npe ak kne mrah???? kn slah die..... ak kuar pun sbb die yg suh.... bongok.... 'hey ingt ak tringin sgt ke nk kuar ngn ko.... ak kuar ngn ko pun sbb kasihan je taw.... n then ko nk mrah ak lak ble xikt ckp ko... ape ko ingt ak nie kuli ko ke??? eh ak pun taw mrah gak la...' eeeeeee gram snggh ak ngn die tu... de ke patut, die suh ak kuar pg2, ak ckp la nk kuar lmbt ckit, tp die kte die dh de kat dpn kolej... ak pun brusaha la ciap cpat nk trun cpat xnk die tggu... alih2 die ne de kat dpn kolej lg..... mati2 ak kne tipu..... mmg sah la pas nie ak xnk kuar ngn die lg....

suker?....

On The Last Day of Raya.....

On the last day of raya that is on 19 Oct 2009, KPMIM held a grand event of Raya Celebration...

Well I went there along with my two frenz.....

We had a great fun that night.....

It was one of the best night....

Why????

Simply becoz of the free goof they were giving and the performance by Ayehan....

he is one of the best singer in the college....

his voice are tremendously sweet, ok so I may exaggerate a little but hey it is really sweet....

after the eating and enjoying the performance, we decided to be a little wild....

hehehehe...

Well taking pictures, crazy pictures of course....

we really enjoying the moment coz we don't know whether we will be able to feel like this ever again.

That's we decided that it should be treasure in pictures....

and....

I HAVE PUBLISH IT IN MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK.....

YEAH YEAH YEAH....

coz i want the whole world to know how happy I am that night....

eventhough yesterday was my bad day.....

but hey that night have make up the bad day....

huhuhuuhh......

ok I think that's it for today kot....

i don't know maybe later this evening I will post another blog, who knows....

wait there someone knows about it,

only God knows about it....

ok everyone daaaaaaa from me...

May God Be with You....

xoxo

Lea Farhana

suker?....

inferiority complex.....

it's been a while since i lat updated my blog.....
well, nothink much happen lately...
just that i develop a something that called 'Inferiority complex'.....
dun know what is inferiority complex,
well you can just google it and find it out yourself...
it is actually a habit of feeling inferior to others.

i found this article and i want to share it with you guys....

Overcome inferiority Complex

Someone once said that they had an inferiority complex but it wasn't a very good one. This may be a joke but it has a serious point. If you have got into the habit of feeling inferior to others then you can literally feel inferior about anything. Feeling inferior is linked to a sense of shame about the self. A feeling that you are not 'up to the mark' or that some how you just don't cut the mustard. As human beings we are all aware of status although it's popular to pretend we don't care about status at all. We use terms like 'dis' for 'disrespect', being 'one up' or 'put down'. Where we are on the pecking order is important to us. An inferiority complex makes you constantly worry about what others think of you. Of course why shouldn't it be just important what you think of them?

Where does an inferiority complex come from?

Inferiority complexes develop from the experience of being 'brain washed' by other people. Maybe you have been unrelentingly criticized and put down by others. Some people like to squash any hint of positive self regard in others and it's easy to be influenced by such people. This session will help you move beyond such former brain washing. If you have an inferiority complex chances are you feel more comfortable spending your time with people you feel aren't too accomplished or successful or good looking or confident themselves. You probably prefer being with people who you feel aren't going to judge you too harshly.

taken from http://www.hypnosisdownloads.com/downloads/self_improvement/inferiority-complex.html

suker?....

Doaku 'jika ak jatuh cinta'

petikan ini diebrikan kpd ak drpd seseorg....

Bismillahirahmannirrahim......

Ya Allah...

Jika aku jatuh cinta,

cintakannlah ak pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padamu,

agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintai mu...

Ya Muhaimin,

Jika aku jatuh hati,

izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yanghatinya tertaut padaMu,

agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu...

Ya Rabbana,

Jika aku jatuh hati,

jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripada hatimu.....

Ya Rabbul Izzati,

Jika aku rindu,

rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan mu...

Ya Allah,

Jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihmu,

jgnlah kenikmatan itu melabihi indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu....

Ya Allah,

Jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihmu,

jgn biarkan aku tertaih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu....

Doaku...

MOGA KITA SAMA2 BERJAYA DI DUNIA DAN DI AKHIRAT....

suker?....

feeling so so so wrong........

once again i did smthng stupid....
so stupid that i shouldn't be forgive....
i did so many sins...
but as a human we all did atleast a sin...
but what i did is much2 bigger.....

i have hurt him....
i know that i have dissapointed evryone( if they know bout it)...
but i felt very guilty is towards my God....
i know that i'm not strong to resist the temptation...
i also know that i'm not strong in facing my obstacle....

God, please forgive me for what i did...

suker?....

siapakah aku sebenarnye?????

aku keseorangan ari nie....
dan buat kesekelian kalinya ak menagis lg....
atas sebab2 yang trtentu,
ak tertanya kpd dri aku...
siapakah aku???
btul ke aku nie ank kandung mereka????
siapa sebenarnye Nur Farhana Liyana????

ari nie spatutnye ak kluar brtemu dgn rkn2 lme...
akan ttpi ak tidak dpt kluar....
ak kecewa lg....
kerana 'org itu' sudah brjnji akn mghntr ak kluar...
ak menangis disebabkn 'org itu' mungkir jnji....
mgkin org akn kta aku cengeng tp hakikatnye die sudah brjnji trlbh dahulu dgn ak.....
ak mle tringt kmbali bbrapa peristiwa yg sama trjd pd ak....
knapa????
knapa stiap kli ak mahu kluar msti tak boleh???
ak jd marah, sdh dan kecewa yg tramat sgt krna 'org itu' slalu mlebihi kn 'mereka' drpd ak....
sblm ini ak tidak ambil peduli akan hal ini krb bg aku hal ini xpntg sgt pun
smpilah suatu ari ade soerng pk cik yg mmbritahu yang aku nie sbnrnye kurang ksh syg...
ak trkjut krn die tahu ape sbnrye yg ak rsekn...

knpa 'org2 itu' harus mmbeza2kn ak ngn 'mereka'????
ak tahu ak x seperti 'mereka' yang pndai bijak yang diharap dpt mmbnggakn 'org2 itu',
tp sedarla bhwa ak juga punya perasaan...
jgn la mnyakiti ati ak lg,
sbb ak tkt nnt ak xkn ade ati lg untk 'kamu' sakiti....

bnde yg sme juga ak rsekn stiap kli ak di kolej....
perbezaan yg ketara antra ak dan rakan2....

ak xsecantik dan sefamous Dira,
ak x sprti Acha dan Ruheil yang baik dan lmah lmbut,
ak xsebijak dan sepandai BBY dan Z,
ak juga xseaktif lala,
dan ak juda xsperti Ieqa Hani yg bijak berniaga....
jd SIAPAKAH AK yang sbnrnye????

apkah ak nie hanya melukut ditepi gantang?????
yang langsung tidak dipandang oleh org lain????

masihkah ade seseorang yg menyayangi ak seikhlasnye????
MASIHKAH??????

apakh takdir ku yg sbnarnye??????
APAKAH?????

masihkah ak pnye kluarga???
Masihkah?????

suker?....

need to find my heart back........

this is the first day i'm back in my hometown.
on the back to tepeng, in the bus i was thinking about my feelings to him....
the whole journey i was thinking about that.
i try to find my feeling back then suddenly i realize my feeling is empty....
i heart is empty....
what happen????? i ask myself.....

i recall back when is the last time we see each other and talk to each other..
well yesterday he did call me just to wish me a safe journey home and ask me to take care of myself, just that....
my heart ache....
i talk to my friends bout this and even they notice that i and him are drifted away from each other.....

somehow i can't just feel his love to me anymore and vice versa....
is it too much to ask for him to give a little bit more attention towards me????
over this period of time, i often go out and hang with my friends and suddenly i started to become the old me...
the one that does not have commitment with any guys and the one that can easily be friends with guys......
why is it happen???

i check back my heart, and then one of my friends told me that actually i'm lonely....
my heart is lonely, even i'm being surrounded by my friends but the truth is i'm lonely in terms of my relation with him....
that's why, i ask him to come back, it just that i need to feel his atmosphere here in Malaysia.
i know people will call me an attention seeker, selfish but i need that just to keep my heart stand still to him...

abg if you read this, i'm trully sorry. i doesn't want to loose you but i can't feel anything. help me please.....

suker?....